toastyhasthestuff

I've been having frequent nightmares. I sleep through them but when i wake up i feel drained and tired. I have a dream catcher but its been there for years and i don't know if they can wear out from catching all the bad forces. Anyways, its also a cheap one i got a the dollar store when i was like 6.  My first 2 night scares were of my father. Whom i'm having daddy issues with. I'd normally write him and tell him what i think but i'm to angry to think straight. The most recent one which happened over the course of 2 hours, was about my ex-step dad.  He was a bad alcoholic and was really mean to my mom. My dream was that my mom fel

As bad as my memory wants to be right now, i first started deviant art when i decided i wanted to become a tattoo artist. I gave up on that dream and now i'm taking criminal justice and law enforcement in my sophomore year. I plan on either becoming a doctor (internal medicine specialist) or maybe becoming either a P.O officer or a detective. Kind of funny how that went all ass backwards right? Tattoo artist then BAM doctor/law enforcer! I'm glad i got the tattoo thing out of my system before i actually got any tattoos. I still want tattoos but i'd rather not give them to anyone, they may end of with the devil on their back rather than the

I Confess,                How can I love him anymore? Cold. I’ve never been anywhere that’s as cold as he is, and I’ve traveled the whole world. Siberia, Antarctica, none of those places freezing temperatures can compare to the chilled frosty heart he has.  It’s not that he’s cold to me, it’s the way he thinks and treats those around him.            His revenge. That’s always on his mind wherever he goes. It pains me to not be able to see a content peaceful look on his face. The only time he looks at peace at all is after sex. He’s not even conscious then so what good does that do?